Projects are coming up tremendously i would say. It was way different than before. I mean it's really killing me. My Lecturer had thrown dozen and solidified information into our brains which i think it really don't works well on me. Neither some of my course-mate does. I was just thinking "OH GOD! I'm OVERLOADED".
I need the remedies for all possibilities to power up my brain to store more infos. Another problem! L.A.T.E. it's always, no matter I've meetings with people. My bad habit. Officially, divulged my bad habits huh. Haha. May be it is not. I'm sick of this life now. Sometime, so much of confusions - so complexes that I want to leave it just like that. Paranoid me. Why I kept thinking about it? I tried to let it go and be myself. I really can't. People I met, i just can't stop figuring what their thoughts are. I judged myself too much and i'm afraid to say wrong things because I don't want to hurt them. Yet i did it sometime and wish at that moment in time to take it back but it was decoded to people's mind. I just can't stop looking at that way. I've a very disturbance brain or mind. This is not only the problem I'm facing it right now.
Confusion over preference?
Every day questions. I want to make it to stop but I couldn't.
I just really detested going through this not only about humans. Sometime i felt - petrified and ready to make my head explode. Like why not? Don't you agree and at that moment. Everything is like GAME OVER.
But there's this person who always understand me from the start of my this big deal problem lol until this minutes. She's SEXY-AWESOMED and i can't imagine how it would be like when during that crucial time without her? LOL the best damn thing is to have her around. =] THANKY YOU! =]
I'm blessed to have such an AWESOME friend like her. Of course there's others whom as well part of this reasons. They had put effort to help me out. And exit from this darkest hole. =] I'm happy to have you guys around and I want to keep you guys, remember that! =] lol KEEP! But of course is not as easy to walk out.
PS: I've never want to reveal what I really feel because I think is mundane and all this words shouldn't be reached to my mum’s ears. I don't want all the worries from friends. I’m happy to have you guys around already. I'm fine and if you think this a first stage of my depression. I'm not. lol So don't worry people =] and people who are reading this, I do care for you guys. =]
Suwanno Rae-Jung,
Peace ||
Meet up soon people, and hopes you guys do well.
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